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aroraborealis) wrote2014-01-10 08:19 am
aroraborealis) wrote2014-01-10 08:19 am
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things that scare me most
I'm working on the writing exercises described in Return, exploring fears and things that scare us. The first part of the exercise is to take 10 minutes to write the things that scare you most, and later, another 10 minutes to write in depth about one of them.
Each of these has woken me in the middle of the night to wrestle with at least once:
The inevitable death of people I love. Being seen through. Exposing vulnerabilities and insecurities. Losing everything and winding up homeless and alone. That I secretly don't matter. The exposure of my worst aspects. To be seen as foolish. To be seen as incompetent. My own inevitable decline and death. Pain, both emotional and physical. Loss of love.
Each of these has woken me in the middle of the night to wrestle with at least once:
The inevitable death of people I love. Being seen through. Exposing vulnerabilities and insecurities. Losing everything and winding up homeless and alone. That I secretly don't matter. The exposure of my worst aspects. To be seen as foolish. To be seen as incompetent. My own inevitable decline and death. Pain, both emotional and physical. Loss of love.