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[aroraborealis]

Is there something you've been meaning to ask me? Go for it!

Anonymous posting, is, as always, available.

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[jbsegal.livejournal.com]

Yeah... you've got 2 domains expiring... what do you want to do about them?

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

[answered in another forum]

[hawkegirl.livejournal.com]

Nice photo.

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

(That's not a question -- you can't fool me! :)

[dancingwolfgrrl.livejournal.com]

How in the world did you get up the guts to leave the country for three months? And to sign up to do it again, for longer, next year? :)

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

This is an interesting question, because it's not at all how I feel about what I did, or am doing.

Going to Guate didn't feel gutsy; it felt necessary. After a long time of feeling stuck in my job, I woke up one morning in the closest I've ever had to a panic attack, feeling horrified at the thought of waking up in ANOTHER 26 years with nothing more to my life than I had at that moment (an apartment, a married boyfriend, and a job that bored the life out of me). And I couldn't figure out how to shake things up without doing something major. Changing jobs, when I didn't have any idea what I WANTED to be doing, and thus, what might lead me to find a greater satisfaction.

So? What to do but something that I had always imagined doing without really believing that I ever would?

It's not that it was easy, or that I didn't face a lot of fears along the way, but in some senses, it was not only obvious, but essential.

As for signing up to do it again... well, really, it rocked. I mean, it was sooooooooo fantastic. The ups were great. The downs were great. It was all so good! I learned so much about myself, and about people, and about pushing myself and learning new things and ... so much more. It was hard and completely worth it. So why wouldn't I do it again? That combined with the fact that I'm still sniffing out my ultimate path... well, again, it's just the obvious way for me to go right now.

But I'll tell you a little secret: If I find a more appealing path along the way, I might just take that one, instead :)

[(Anonymous)]

So where's the rest of the picture that forms your icon?

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

http://www.homeport.org/~arora/Mexico/Desktop-Pages/Image34.html

[dilletante.livejournal.com]

wow, what a gorgeous picture of you!

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

Thanks!

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

(You're not fooling me, either -- that wasn't a question! ;)

[beah.livejournal.com]

Yes! I haven't seen you on #homeport in a long time. Where have you gone and what have you been up to?

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

I'm still on irc, just not on #homeport. I've felt a little distanced from the new crowd, and not particularly inclined to visit all that often. I do drop in from time to time, but not frequently. Feel free to ping me if you see that I'm on, though! I'm roar when I'm on from my work machine, and arora the rest of the time :)

[beah.livejournal.com]

How do I find you if you're on irc but not the channel I'm on?

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

/whois -- this should tell you a) if someone's online and b) how long they've been idle (if you're on the same server)

[dpolicar]

Where are you going in life? (Yeah, I know, San Francisco.)

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

This might sound like a cop-out, but... it doesn't really matter :)

I don't have a clear vision of where I want to end up, and that makes it harder to end up anywhere specific. What I know I want is to be happy, to do good, to enjoy myself, to experience all sorts of things, good and bad.

I think I hope that along the way, I'll have a variety of jobs that will not only keep me in food, clothing and home, but also help me to feel good about myself and what I'm doing in the world. I also hope that I will have partners who join me in my adventures and inspire me to new ones. I hope I will continue to have friends who brighten my days, who challenge me to be better and who comfort me when I'm looking for home.

[dpolicar]

Not a copout at all... I considered hedging the question with "or are you going anywhere in particular?" but figured you'd understand.

[laurenhat.livejournal.com]

Been meaning to ask for a while... want to get together again sometime? :) Though at the moment I have beginning-of-semester craziness going on. But you're going to SF anyway, so maybe when you get back...

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

Yes! I think I passed you on the sidewalk in Powderhouse the other week, but I was deep in intense conversation with a friend and couldn't stop to say hi.

Let's definitely plan to get together again sometime after I get back, possibly after my parents come and go, which brings us to the 23rd or so of october. But let's just see what happens in that first week of october for starters :)

[laurenhat.livejournal.com]

Yes, indeed, we did pass in Powderhouse! I was deep in thought, myself, and it only registered right as we were passing. I meant to email you after, but I instantly got lost in thought again and forgot.

Sure, let's see what happens in october. In the meantime, have a great trip!

[gatopreto.livejournal.com]

Would you like to get together when you are in SF? (Since that's where <lj user="meristem" and I live!) Drop me a line at gatopreto at livejournal dot com!

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

Yes, possibly! I'm afraid I may be somewhat short on spare time, but it would be nice to get together for lunch or dinner if I can swing it! I'll email you with more specifics :)

[gatopreto.livejournal.com]

Cool. I have a flexible schedule (being a homemaker and student) though I will be leaving town for SoCal on Thursday. I will look for email!

[pumpkin-pi.livejournal.com]

When are you available for chatting and margaritas?

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

Like with laurenhat, I'd like to see you -- my schedule is difficult for the next little while -- I may be able to get together the first week of october, and if not, not until the end of October. But! Let's definitely make it happen; I'll let you know how things are looking once I'm back from CA.

Why all the eels?

[(Anonymous)]

For the sake of the children, what is it with the eels?

Re: Why all the eels?

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

It's because they're delicious toasted over rice :)