You don't know what you've got

[aroraborealis]

One of life's most mixed blessings, I think, is how it sneaks the good stuff into daily routine and habit without you fully realizing it's happening. It can be easy to point to some vague starting point, but somewhere between meeting someone and realizing how important they are to you, all the foundational magic of friendship and love happens without much conscious awareness.


So, though I knew I'd miss contessagrrl when she moved to SF, I'm taken by surprise by how much grief I feel about her absence. It's funny, actually, because I think she was a bigger part of my life in the last 6-8 months than she would have been otherwise because of her upcoming plans to move -- it meant we spent more time together, knowing it was short. In the end, it feels more like the loss of a partner* -- and irreplaceable one -- than that of a friend.

I know life goes on and there are so many awesome people around here and in my life, and there's plenty of goodness and fun and joy to have with you all, and that's great. But if I'm quiet or withdrawn or grouchy or mopey for the next couple of months, this is probably why.

*In fact, our friendship has kind of expanded how I think of the role of partner in a really good way. I'll probably get around to posting about that someday.

Comments

[tcb.livejournal.com]

All the more reason to visit often ;)

(seriously, *hug*)

[aroraborealis.livejournal.com]

Oh, no worries on that front. I'm already plotting.

[contessagrrl.livejournal.com]

I have a friend in a bright and distant town,
She's found a common balance,
Where you do your work, and you do your love,
And they pay you, and praise your many talents.
And I'm passing through, and we're not going to sleep,
she laughs and puts on the tea,
She says, "You know I think you remember every part of me."
And the water starts to boil,
And if I had a camera
Showing all the light we give
and showing where the light extends,
I'd give it to my friends.

I think of you every time I hear this fucking song (usually, crying in the car). I love you and miss you for so many reasons, but the way you inspire me to be a better person is right at the top of the list, along with the way we do shine together.

I miss you like crazy.

You made my world better every day and sometimes, I worry that I didn't tell you that often enough. Here: you still make my world better every day.

I miss laughing with you.

You're the best platonic partner ever. :) No, really. I have a lot to say on that subject, too, but right now I'm just going to cry and miss you. I'm very good at it!

You two are both awesome

[drwex]

And I hope you both figure out a good solution for this distance problem.

[curly-chick.livejournal.com]

I get a lot of what you say here.

I have a friend who I consider, alternatively, my sister, my closest friend, and my partner. Her life is about to change, big time, in a very positive way, but I know that it will mean a loss for me. While I am so thrilled for her, I am also grieving for me.

[laurenhat.livejournal.com]

*hug* :(

If it will help at all, call or IM any time. I'd always love to talk to you. Well, that's true whether or not it will help you. ;) anyway, yeah. *hug*

[underwatercolor.livejournal.com]

*hugs* :)